there's nothing left to say

 i never need the pain

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strength
My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words
I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I'm never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it's a little late for explanations

There isn't anything that you can do
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So you will listen when I say
Baby

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

First I was afraid I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
But I grew strong I learned how to carry on

Hush, hush, hush hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken baby
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
Hey Hey..

Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, I get the final say,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love ïs broken
Baby hush, hush

pelangi

Langit itu bukan selalu cerah. 

Bukan selalu indah. Guruh, kilat, hujan. 

Kadang-kadang kita terlalu lalai nak tengok bawah. 

Lupa pada pokok, rumput, tanah. 

Sebab kita fikir atas sana lagi indah.

Awak,

Saya tahu awak tahu,

Saat saya putus untuk tetapkan hati, yakinkan diri - awak hilang

Biarkan saya terapung, paru-paru saya makin sempit. Jantung saya makin laju.

Tapi saya tak salahkan awak.

tapi hati saya mula membenci awak.

saya nak padam number awak dari phOnebook saya tp saya dh hafal la number awak.

kalau saya pakai number lain pun,saya masih akan curi-curi mesej awak.

sekarang ni pun tiap-tiap pagi saya langgar janji saya.

saya minta maaf.

Aku bukan wanita kuat seperti yang wujud dalam fikiran mu itu

Aku juga bukan pejuang yang akan bermatian untuk hati sendiri

Aku sudah belajar melepaskan (mungkin juga masih belajar)

Tapi aku masih simpan hati kamu

this could be my chance to say goodbye

THE USED - The Taste of Ink

Is it worth that can't you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this

Won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away
We'll drink and dance the night away

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this

(As long as you're alive here I am..)

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

i can't help you to fix yourself but at least i tried

can i tell u how much u hurt me?

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

note :

you need time to sort out your life. Fine with me. I really don't know what kind of mess you are in but if my disappearance help, I will stay away. But how hard it is to just tell me what happen. I really thought that we had a very good relationship and we can talk about everything. I'm shocked that now I realize there are things that you still find it difficult to tell me. I can't force you to tell me. But please, don't left me hanging. At least tell me what to do. I'm so used of having you around and when suddenly you just shut me away, I feel....alone...

 

Do you have any idea how much it hurt to be left alone?

You did promise that you will never hurt me,but?

I'm trying really hard to forget you. To forget this pain. To move on with my life. It's not easy but I'll will always respect your decision.

no one want to wait forever

i wonder if i ever cross your mind

it hurts isn't??we didnt want 2 talk to each other but yet we're finding way to catch a glimpse of what the other people are doing..if you werent feeling the same way as i do, well, too bad for me.

~ i need you now but i rather to stay away~

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now (wait)
Ooo, baby, I need you now

Ms. DeafDaddy

~remember to care for those who care for you~

note :
i dun have a good relationship vt my dad.
i tried!!i really did.
hope we can make it work, one way or another

is it a sign?

get away~coz u want nothing to do with me

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
the beating of your heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

You...
You want nothing to do with me.
You...
You want nothing to do with me.
I...
I don't know what to do with you.
'Cause you...
don't know what you do to me.

Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel--
the beating of your heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
your beating heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

Girl...
You really got your hold on me.
Girl...
You really got your hold on me.
Go...
You gotta get away from me.
'Cause you...
You want nothing to do with me.

Baby is this love is for real
Let me in your arms to feel--
the beating of your heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
your beating heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

In spite of you,
even out of view,
still I love all of you.
I.. I do. Yeah...

In spite of you,
even out of view,
still I love all of you.
I.. I do. Well...

You...
You want nothing to do with me.
You...
You want nothing to do with me.

Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel--
your beating heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
the beating of your heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.